ouch

So today was a okay day. I only had one class to worry about which is at 8 oclock. damn system who ever decides these things should be beating with a rubber hose. I don't have to go to my assistanship class everytime. only when things are due which is sweet. I might show up once in awhile though to kinda know what they are doing. So after five days I went back to the gym and it showed. man you have to make sure you go all the time or it just really sucks. somehow i hurt my back. i'm not sure how, i didn't do to many back exercises but i did do things that I haven't done in awhile. so i felt really old afterwards and was just a gimp throughout the day. the highlight of my day was going to kim's house to play guitar with her. it was fun but in the same way a little awkward. we talked last night and one of the conversation topics was are we dating? first thing that came into my head was, great tonight is the night we had to talk about this. i didn't really want to talk about it but i think it had to be done before things, well i don't know. out from the conversation we put the label on us and we are just friends(ouch). it was really a hard thing to swallow actually. obviosusly, it probably wouldn't be a good thing to get back to dating right now. thats what my friends have said and i don't think that i am ready for something like that. i feel really ready, but that is only in my head. but thats what my friends tell me. i think its time for me to go and talk to someone about this, so i might do that pretty soon. I really can't express the thoughts that are going over in my head because of this. now that we are labeled, what will happen? what will change? what will stay the same? time will tell on that. we enjoy hanging out with each other so, things might stay the same but maybe things will drift apart. i don't know, its whatever we choose to do. if it is too weird then we will drift or if we can put that aside and just have fun together then it will be okay. the future will tell. i could probably go more on this but I will stop and leave it at that.
because of the pain that i was in today i decided to go to bed really early. hence the reason why i am up and writing this blog at 5 in the morning. i will probably read a little then hit the bed again. my back feels much better so the rest helped. well i think that is all for now. i will end by saying that i am also working on this song for guitar. its pretty kewl. i have to thank kim for this inspiration that she gave me. shes helped a lot with my guitar skills that i am actally learning to play and seeing how easy it really is. i wish we met in another lifetime. shes such a special girl that i am glad that she is in my life and i'm glad that we are friends.


i am sitting on the top of a tree
with my legs bent and my arms on my knees
looking out at the sun
as it falls and ends the scene
some of me wants to see
that scene to be me

me