everyday
i've been waiting to blog all day. i was going to blog earlier but when i turned on my labtop a disk error came up and windows never started. i'm so numb in my life that it didn't really phase me to much. i just laid in bed and thought about what was on my labtop that i haven't backup yet. only some school stuff and misc stuff. I really became bum when i realize that i have not updated a lot of my music. so that hit hard. so i tried to do some emergency things to it but nothing was working. then i had to go to class so i said forget it. after all it is friday the 13 and bad things happen this day.
it was a okay day. i was bumed out pretty much the whole day. i have to blame the weather for my moods. it was a raining day. it just brings out the worst feelings in my head. but anyway i was thinking today about myself and my life. where am i going and what should i be doing now. school is getting really hard for me and i just can't get that feeling that i had back. i feel so unmotivated to do my work and get things going. i need to do something that is awesome, like skydive or go skiing. but even that would be fun i don't think that will solve my problems that i am having. this sucks, because i am not really bummed so i can't remember what i wanted to say more about things. you know what? actually i think my major problem is that i am alone. i'm living bymyself which i haven't done before. i left my parents house with my x and has always had that support of someone to talk to. wait no thats wrong. i did live in the dorm, but i had a roomate. one semester my roomate left and i was alone for a semester. thinking about it, i think i felt the same way. but i manage i think. well i am pretty sure i will talk about this more later i just can't remember what i wanted to say.
i was talking about relationships today with kim. we discussed about are past relationships that we've had. she blog about having difficulty with relationship which she meant friends in general not really boyfriend. relationships are always hard to manage thats why some work out and some don't. i remember in high school of going through a different girl every month. it wasn't a big deal just a way to meet someone that u had a interest in and going further then just being friends. having a girlfriend or boyfriend is just having a person that u can talk to about everything. its easy
man its 3am and i must be lonely... haha i'm just rambling now so goodnight world
it was a okay day. i was bumed out pretty much the whole day. i have to blame the weather for my moods. it was a raining day. it just brings out the worst feelings in my head. but anyway i was thinking today about myself and my life. where am i going and what should i be doing now. school is getting really hard for me and i just can't get that feeling that i had back. i feel so unmotivated to do my work and get things going. i need to do something that is awesome, like skydive or go skiing. but even that would be fun i don't think that will solve my problems that i am having. this sucks, because i am not really bummed so i can't remember what i wanted to say more about things. you know what? actually i think my major problem is that i am alone. i'm living bymyself which i haven't done before. i left my parents house with my x and has always had that support of someone to talk to. wait no thats wrong. i did live in the dorm, but i had a roomate. one semester my roomate left and i was alone for a semester. thinking about it, i think i felt the same way. but i manage i think. well i am pretty sure i will talk about this more later i just can't remember what i wanted to say.
i was talking about relationships today with kim. we discussed about are past relationships that we've had. she blog about having difficulty with relationship which she meant friends in general not really boyfriend. relationships are always hard to manage thats why some work out and some don't. i remember in high school of going through a different girl every month. it wasn't a big deal just a way to meet someone that u had a interest in and going further then just being friends. having a girlfriend or boyfriend is just having a person that u can talk to about everything. its easy
man its 3am and i must be lonely... haha i'm just rambling now so goodnight world
posted by Justin at 1:59 AM
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