sick
yesterday I felt sick. I actually think my friend Janine gave me her cold. She mentioned that she was sick. weird though because i was only talking to her. I think her talking to me made my immune system shut down or something. I am coughing and have a thing in my throat that I can't really explain. Lower parts of my throat feels like it has a fever. I don't know, i'm sure its nothing too bad I haven't been sick for a long time. damn weather
so, I guess if you have a really good friend that friend will know something is up with you. that happen to me today. my friend Kim notice that i seem down today. in a way i was kinda down today. i am so in a sense of limbo right now. i know i mentioned this before. maybe limbo is not the right word to describe it. my purpose in life is going over and over in my head. what will happen when i am out of school? will i finish school? people have told me that i have a future, is this really true? I have experience so much in my life, what is next and what really should be the next step in my life. i'm not saying that i want to just end my life or something like that. i will continue to keep going with my life and where it will take me. i just wish that motivation, that drive was with me and helping complete the challenges. coming here to miami, i feel has made me stupid and a idiot. i'm not getting the grades that i am use to getting and i am not really making it. school and my wife are the things that are really tearing me up inside. i both just want them both to end. but of course, that will take time and seems like money.
in some ways, i am so jealous of my friends right now. they don't have masters degree but they do have a job. some love there job and some don't, some are extrelmely busy with it to that they get off really late. man, i would love that to be me right now. this is my problem why my motivation is not on school but work. hopefully i will be able to get something back this semester. my friend kim is going on a 5 month hiking trip on the AT. shes is very excited about her trip. i'm excited for her, i know she will have a great time. hopefully she will find what she is looking for. i mention to her that i liked her and that she is a great person. it was actually a very funny moment, for the first time i was speech less. ;o) i played guitar with her one night and after that I had something to tell her, it started to rain when i told her. lol, she didn't say anything neither. it was classic. later i talked with her and she told me her situation, which i respect. I just wanted her to know that i really enjoy her company and talking with her. time is something i have. of course that ocean will be leaving in 2 months then won't be back til august ;o(
but its all good. wow, i talked about that for awhile. anywoo, she saw that i was not happy, but in a way i was. I was happy seeing her and talking with her. it was a good chance that we were going to play guitar tonight but things came up with her. she told me that she probably wasn't going to be able to play so i wasn't surprise when i got her call. ;o)
so, I guess if you have a really good friend that friend will know something is up with you. that happen to me today. my friend Kim notice that i seem down today. in a way i was kinda down today. i am so in a sense of limbo right now. i know i mentioned this before. maybe limbo is not the right word to describe it. my purpose in life is going over and over in my head. what will happen when i am out of school? will i finish school? people have told me that i have a future, is this really true? I have experience so much in my life, what is next and what really should be the next step in my life. i'm not saying that i want to just end my life or something like that. i will continue to keep going with my life and where it will take me. i just wish that motivation, that drive was with me and helping complete the challenges. coming here to miami, i feel has made me stupid and a idiot. i'm not getting the grades that i am use to getting and i am not really making it. school and my wife are the things that are really tearing me up inside. i both just want them both to end. but of course, that will take time and seems like money.
in some ways, i am so jealous of my friends right now. they don't have masters degree but they do have a job. some love there job and some don't, some are extrelmely busy with it to that they get off really late. man, i would love that to be me right now. this is my problem why my motivation is not on school but work. hopefully i will be able to get something back this semester. my friend kim is going on a 5 month hiking trip on the AT. shes is very excited about her trip. i'm excited for her, i know she will have a great time. hopefully she will find what she is looking for. i mention to her that i liked her and that she is a great person. it was actually a very funny moment, for the first time i was speech less. ;o) i played guitar with her one night and after that I had something to tell her, it started to rain when i told her. lol, she didn't say anything neither. it was classic. later i talked with her and she told me her situation, which i respect. I just wanted her to know that i really enjoy her company and talking with her. time is something i have. of course that ocean will be leaving in 2 months then won't be back til august ;o(
but its all good. wow, i talked about that for awhile. anywoo, she saw that i was not happy, but in a way i was. I was happy seeing her and talking with her. it was a good chance that we were going to play guitar tonight but things came up with her. she told me that she probably wasn't going to be able to play so i wasn't surprise when i got her call. ;o)
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