sick

after talking with kim, i have been pondering the ideas of being sick. not sick as in cold and throwing up or fever but the mental side of sick. it is really a crazy concept that unfortunately i have not had the chance to understand it. only sickness i have is my worries of people talking about me behind my back or what do they see when they look at me. my studio mate jenny has a bf who has problems. man she is a tough girl for staying with him knowing the problems he has. i feel that it is something that you have to be patient with and try to be understanding. having a dialogue is very challenging, especially for me. talking with kim, i was lost in thought and could not think of anything to say. 30 seconds went by and no response until i changed the subject. i will continue to ponder this idea and see where it takes me.