someone part2
tonight was a fun night in studio. there has been better nights that were amusing. this night was just kewl, i was getting things done and feeling good with myself. i had to pay rent today for my other place, hopefully that problem will get solved. i feel that the weight is on me to get a subleaser. damn landlords.
i'm getting my life in order with some things that i am having problems with getting a hold of. one being my eating habits. since i am in a new place it is not yet 'home' for me, i have boxes and things that are not put away. hard to get around. hard to really get comfortable since everywhere i see certain objects start the memories going on in my head. fixing things in my kitchen is kinda hard so i am subjected to going out to fast food joints. eating out can get really tiresome on me and my body i feel. also hurts my pocketbook. i'm not too worried about that but it is implanted in my head about trying not to spend so much on food. another issue is my workout. I went to work out Tuesday, i was soooo excited to get back to it. it was a week since i last went. i was a okay workout, i quit kinda early because of my frustration of getting back to the pounds that i was. because of the extensive work i have not been since. misssed going out thursday. i will try to go out this weekend. school is driving me crazy.
so yea, i have been talking a lot with kim after the movies. we went to a concert that was kewl last weekend. it was at a bookstore in cincy, of all places. i'm use to pavillions and stadiums seeing a DMB concert. it was kewl though, quite a few people were there. it was kim's favorite band. i like them. joe was there, (her friend), who liked the band. good guy from the time spent. we went to the mall afterwards. i was in search of a ring for my thumb finger to replace i lost a year ago. another move to get back my life.
almost everynight i have been talking with kim, late nights too. it was kewl though, since i was going to be up anyway. because of her job she is a late owl and will probably be that way for awhile. which is kewl because school makes me a morning eagle and a late owl too. more and more i am learning who kim is. she writes a blog to that has lots of things in it. very spiritual girl that really wants to know who she is and wants to find her purpose. its a great goal i think. very sad history she has and some good ones. life is a crazy thing and u just have to be strong and be happy that you are able to experience it. she is very much into religion, more importantly the christian faith. that was never really my thing. everytime i'm in church i feel really acky that something is hurting me. my younger years i felt that i was a vampire and that it hurt me to be in church. i very much believe in god, but i do not practice. it is something that my parents wish they put that more into me then they did. but i feel that i have time to get into it if i want. i believe in fate more, but fate is controlled by god, he will lead me in the right direction. my life has been great because of fate and his decisions that he gives me. its hard to explain but, i am blessed to be where i am right now. but still i have experienced everything and i think that will be my life until i die. i will have good times and i will have bad times. but those time will not cause harm on me. i will always be safe no matter how it might not seem. kim entered my life for a reason and we will see where that will go. shes very kewl, wish school wasn't so rough right now and had some time. but time is actually on my side. no rush right now. i'm not going anywhere and thats okay with me. things should be slow with me anyway. how strong i might be, i am still in a fragile state.
i'm getting my life in order with some things that i am having problems with getting a hold of. one being my eating habits. since i am in a new place it is not yet 'home' for me, i have boxes and things that are not put away. hard to get around. hard to really get comfortable since everywhere i see certain objects start the memories going on in my head. fixing things in my kitchen is kinda hard so i am subjected to going out to fast food joints. eating out can get really tiresome on me and my body i feel. also hurts my pocketbook. i'm not too worried about that but it is implanted in my head about trying not to spend so much on food. another issue is my workout. I went to work out Tuesday, i was soooo excited to get back to it. it was a week since i last went. i was a okay workout, i quit kinda early because of my frustration of getting back to the pounds that i was. because of the extensive work i have not been since. misssed going out thursday. i will try to go out this weekend. school is driving me crazy.
so yea, i have been talking a lot with kim after the movies. we went to a concert that was kewl last weekend. it was at a bookstore in cincy, of all places. i'm use to pavillions and stadiums seeing a DMB concert. it was kewl though, quite a few people were there. it was kim's favorite band. i like them. joe was there, (her friend), who liked the band. good guy from the time spent. we went to the mall afterwards. i was in search of a ring for my thumb finger to replace i lost a year ago. another move to get back my life.
almost everynight i have been talking with kim, late nights too. it was kewl though, since i was going to be up anyway. because of her job she is a late owl and will probably be that way for awhile. which is kewl because school makes me a morning eagle and a late owl too. more and more i am learning who kim is. she writes a blog to that has lots of things in it. very spiritual girl that really wants to know who she is and wants to find her purpose. its a great goal i think. very sad history she has and some good ones. life is a crazy thing and u just have to be strong and be happy that you are able to experience it. she is very much into religion, more importantly the christian faith. that was never really my thing. everytime i'm in church i feel really acky that something is hurting me. my younger years i felt that i was a vampire and that it hurt me to be in church. i very much believe in god, but i do not practice. it is something that my parents wish they put that more into me then they did. but i feel that i have time to get into it if i want. i believe in fate more, but fate is controlled by god, he will lead me in the right direction. my life has been great because of fate and his decisions that he gives me. its hard to explain but, i am blessed to be where i am right now. but still i have experienced everything and i think that will be my life until i die. i will have good times and i will have bad times. but those time will not cause harm on me. i will always be safe no matter how it might not seem. kim entered my life for a reason and we will see where that will go. shes very kewl, wish school wasn't so rough right now and had some time. but time is actually on my side. no rush right now. i'm not going anywhere and thats okay with me. things should be slow with me anyway. how strong i might be, i am still in a fragile state.
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