as promise

as promise i have returned to send out a email about what has happen to me and my life. where do i start? fitst of all. today is the last day of spring semester classes. it has a crazy semester. sooo much has happen to me which i still can't grasp and put my fingers around it. the thing about it is that i think everything that has happen is all positive. first was getting away from my soon to be x wife. i'm glad shes gone, the time has open my eyes to see that she wasn't the right person in my life. its weird to explain b/c i how coould i be with someone for so long and not see it. long time means becoming comfortable and trying to make things work. another thing that happen to me is more consious about my health. i mentally and physically stayed on my workout plain and manage to bulk up this semester. i'm pretty sure that i strectch my body a couple of inches working out. i gained my 20 pounds that i wanted and i am putting up some good amount of weight. because of the heavy loads these couple weeks i have only went to the gym a few times. i plan on hitting the gym everyday when school lets out. speaking of goals. i set my first mildstone last weekend. i ran my first 5K race. it was kewl. sarah and i did it together. i'm so proud of her these couple days. oh yea, sarah is another thing that is so positive that has happen to me late this semester. shes been wonderful that i can not fully put into words yet. the feeling that i have when i see her is crazy great. i'm so happy she is in my life right now. also proud that she will be making her own goals happening. shes planning on going to school in the fall and finishing up her degree which is great and she is going to really get into working out and staying fit. another great thing that i am happy about is being able to rekindle lost friendship and gain new friends along the way. there are soo many that i can't talk about all of them. with the help of myspace i have talked to a lot of peeps i haven't talk to for so long. but not only myspace but the friendships i developed during the year. my friend kim who is still hiking the trail was a prayer in disguise. when my life was in a bad state she had the ways to make it better. i cant wait till she returns. me and her friends really miss her. the married friend mr. rip is more and more being a good friend and sharing his life with me. my workout bud murle is awesome. and everyone else that didn't mention. this last thing is i feel a positive but in a way is a negative thing. with everything that has been going on only thing that i have kept was my education. i still had classes and still had a school life which was good. but, i am getting more drifted away from school and i think that this is going to be my last semester for awhile. i don't think i will get the grades to stay on another year. i am going to try but its hard when my mind is wanting me to fail. i'm lost and dont know what really to do. i just know that i'm not scared of the future, school is not death or anything. I WILL BE OKAY. that is something that i have been putting into my head. god has put me this far and he has a plan for me. i will know what that is in a few more weeks. i am still going to go about my day and life thinking i will continue to go to school but if i do i am going to change a little bit about it. i can't swamp myself with so much this time. if i stay on. i am not going to take the overload of class but only a small amount and then hopefully just have to take some classes in the next fall. anyway i said a lot. so i am going to end and write more later on. later